Relax. You will become an adult. You will figure out your career. You will find someone who loves you. You have a whole lifetime; time takes time. The only way to fail at life is to abstain.
I will not be your “sometimes”.
i want to care, but i don’t.
i look at you and all i feel is tired.
Cut the poison out of your life. No matter what - or whom - it may be.