Becoming a cold hearted bitch wasn’t really what I planned to do with my life but here I am
I can’t take it anymore. Everyone seems to just lie to me and use me and turn me into a joke. I’m nothing but honest and loyal and dedicated yet people just treat me like shit. I put everything I have into relationships and/or friendships, for what? I’m just a toy to everyone lately and I’m fed up with it. I’m the subject of the rumors and the topic of the inside jokes and everyone knows everything but me. I’m just left to take the blow and the hatred without an explanation. I’m so done. Everyone I get close to ends up leaving. Everyone I open up to turns out to be a fucking lapdog to the people who hate me most, and run off and tell them everything. I’m sick of it, it’s annoying. Like nobody seems to understand how fragile and damaged I am. All I want is someone who will return everyone bit of my love, accept the scars on my skin, and my heart. Someone who’ll give me all of their spare time and attention. I just want someone who cares as much as I do, and will be proud of me.
emotional abuse is when someone does something to hurt you, and when you express your feelings, that you’re upset, they turn it around to be something you did to hurt them and they force you to apologize for it, and your feelings, like always, are rendered invalid and silenced, forever damaging the ability to trust others with your feelings because they always are used against you.
this is important because so many people don’t know this
Do you ever get like super vulnerable late at night that you just want to spill your heart out and say how you feel because you’ve been holding it in for so long and you just need some ventilation and there’s just something about two in the morning that makes me lose my filter and say the things I would never have the guts to say when the sun is up.
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end.